I have tried to post a few times in the last couple of days. But have been unable to. My heart is heavy with loneliness. I miss my Hubby much more this time around. The first deployment was different and not as hard on me. Now even with friends and a church that does care for us it is still harder than the last time.
I do know that I will make it through but the last few days I have felt the pain and grief more than ever. I know each time is different and I know that supposedly this is not supposed to be as long but I can not reconcile it to my heart yet. I have tried and I have put that brave face on to make myself feel better but it is not working. I have no clue as what else to do I do not know if anyone has ever felt this way before or not. I am sure I am not alone but I feel it really bad for some reason the last few days. Maybe by the end of the week I will feel better. I guess I will just have to wait this out and get over it.
I am off to get the Kiddos ready for bed and church tomorrow. Hopefully the day will dawn brighter than it has been.