I am looking up. It has been a rough couple of weeks. Hubby is having a hard time at work and I am feeling the effects of it. He is not takin it out on me just the stress is floating through my body as wella s his. It seems everytime Hubby comes home from a deployment he starts from square one with the job. Granted last year he did not have a job but found one quickly. Just not a well paying job. And to boot it is the type of job that is hard to get time off since it is a customer service driven job. Hubby rocks at his job and when he told his customers thathe was deploying they were all sad to se him go. They did not want another tech just my Hubby. Did I mention he rocks? Anyway, since Hubby has been back to work he has not had a very good route and he has been working twice as hard as before. Now it seems some pay issues have arisen and a couple of comments were made that should have never been said. I am hot over it and am glad I was not the one said comments were said to.

This has got me to thinking if other National Guard or Reserve families go through this when they come home. This is so very stupid to deal with. Now I know why the National Guard and Reserve numbers are down. Alot of their Soldiers are going active because of pay and quality of living. We do worse for a few months after Hubby comes home money wise and once we get to be where we are pulling our heads above water he is called up again. We decided to go Active because of the inconstiency of the Guard life right now. FOr us it is not doable anymore. Hubby loves the National Guard and feels he was doing a great thing there. Just the civialian world has other thoughts about that.

I am off to my old job and figure something out that was posted wrong and get that right before we leave the area and tax season comes. One more headache to deal with.

On the brighter side before I run off for the day is that my Reading class that I was having issues with is coming along smoothly now. I am getting it and getting a mid B. Not what I aimed for but better than what I thought was going to happen after the first area we covered. :)

I am here. Just have nothing to say. I am down and out right now and don't know where to go but up.

Hay I have added a guest book for some reason that I can not even make up now. :) But I am asking my friends to stop in and sign it real quick for me.

Jan had this to say in her comment to me about Hubby going active duty.
You are compromising your dream law school. It's a situation we've all been in - giving up our job, giving up our kids' friends, etc.

You know she is right, I am compromising my dream of Baylor Law School for now. It was a hard decision to make and I did cry a few tears but realized why and what we are doing. We are reenlisting for money reasons. Hubby has come home two times to a job that was supposed to be the same but was not. The base pay was equal but his commission has gone way down due to the fact his route was divided up and they will not give it back to him as a whole route again. It just sucks and we decided to do something about it.

As far as my dream goes, I have started it and know I can do it. No matter where we are I will still take classes of some kind and keep working forward. If I do not get to go to Baylor then it was not ment to be. I will go to a Law School like I had always planned. It just may not be in 4 years like I had planned. Next semster I wil start working towards my Crimial Justice Degree and will be able to take most of those credits wherever we go. I am more excited about being able to see my Hubby with his head high and walking proud again. We have 12 years to go for retirement and in that time anything can happen. I am just not looking forward to being alone again but it is only for a few months. And Hubby will be able to come see us and we will be able to go see him if he is close enough. Just keep us in your prayers and send good thoughts our way. This week has brought unexpected changes of plans and it is wrecking havoc on my study group nihgt this week. Oh well. We will be fine because we are always fine in the long run and that will never change.

So please heal your heart and know I have promised all of my online friends, Hubby and myself Law School is still a must, just not as soon as I want. My dream will be fullfilled even as my Hubby fullfilleds his dreams. Which by the way includes WOC package in the near future.

Our life is going to change in a big way soon. How soon? Who knows. We are in the wait and see phase. Hubby has decided to go Active Duty this year. I know he has been thinking about it for a few weks and decided this week to do it. I am in total agreement with him and the reasons he made the desicion.

To be totally honest though I am a little mad at the timing of this. I know I can conitue my education anywhere we go but I wanted to stay here so I could go to Baylor Law. I have not told Hubby I am upset about it yet. I am not sure I will. I just came to that understanding last night. I was supposed to be writing a paper and it hit me. I will not be able to go to Baylor Law unless Hubby becomes a Recuiter here in the next 4 years. Oh well. I will find another Law School to go to and adapt to the new life plan. This does not mean I am not upset though about having to change my plans.

We have only told a few people and Hubby's family does not know yet. It is not a chat either of us are ready to have. My side of the family has had mixed reactions. The Kiddos are god with it. Buddy Lee is excited to be around that life all the time. He just smiles his big ole grin and his eys light up like it is Christmas morning. Sweetness is just happy. I know they don't understand this means a deployment again in the near future. Big Man has been silent about this for the most part. Considering it has only been 48 hours since the descion has been made I can understand that.

I am off to do the never ending laundry and try to read for a mid term next week. We will see how that works out.

The weather is cooling, the nights are a tad chilly. Fall is finally coming and I am loving it. This weather is more enjoyable and easier to deal with. The humidity is high but the temps are low enough that is does not bother me. Hubby said today was a wonderful day to be outside working. It is finaly bearable in the Heart of Texas. I can live this way for a long time and be content.

I am sad. I is October 2, 2007 and the temps here are still in the mid 90s. What in the world is up with that? October to me means cool days and chilly nights. I should be wearing a pair of sweatpants and a tshirt with socks right now not shorts and sandals. I have been informed by our weather man that come next week we might only make it to 80s for a high each day and the 60s for lows at night. The humidity is still high and that makes for a sticky day. Plus I am mad at the weather because I have a really cool hoodie and pair of sweatpants I wan to wear and I was hoping to be in them by now. I mean come on in Vegas they have highs of 70s already. It should be a little cooler her don't ya think?