Monday, November 17, 2008

So over the weekend we got almost everything completed on the list and then some. But the laundry is still not done and I am tired of looking at it. I am supposed to be doing homework, it is the last chapter questions for my COurt Systems class. 3 to go and I need a break.
I was talking with a neighbor tonight. Her husband is getting ready to start another deployment and she has the same fears I have not seemed to conqueor. I am having a hard time giving Hubby what he needs and I do not feel as if I have anything to give back to him. I have been giving and giving and not getting much back for awhile. I know what I signed up for but to be honest the whole back and forth thing between deployments has worn me down. We counted the other day how long Hubby has been home in the last four years. It made me cry and brings a tear to my eye whenever I think of it. It was not even 24 months he has been here. He has missed holidays, birthdays and so many other moments we will never get back. He will miss Sweetness' first rectial playing her clairenet. She is good, by the way. And more holidays and birthdays are fast approaching. We are having a small Christmas this year and keeping the tree up til R&R. Whenever that may be.
Thanksgiving will be with my Dad and hhis sister. I am looking forward to a couple of days away from the hustle and bustle of what has turned into my life.

I am off to finish my homework and to get some sleep, maybe. Yeah, that thing called sleep still evades me. It may find me again one day but I am not holding my breath.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I was reading your blog and understand what you are saying completely. You are not alone! In the last 4 years my husband has been gone 29 months between 2 deployments and 3 army schools plus TDY trips. He has missed many things considering we have a 4 1/2 and 19 month old boys. We are very strong woman to be able to handle this lifestyle. You can make it, life is full of ups and downs!!! Don't loose hope in your marriage, he is missing you just as much as you miss him.
SF Guard wife,