I am sitting here trying to figure out why people think I do not support my Hubby since I am not all excited about him leaving soon and spending a few more months alone. I love the fact he is going active and we will be able to be together soon adn he will not be in a war zone. I just know that a huge part of me is going to be gone soon adn I will be half again until this summer. I barely get it so how can I make someone else get it?

We have a tentative ship date. It is very soon and I am trying to wrap my mind around it. We heard yesterday and I am in awe really. In the beginning everything was moving so slooooooooooooooooow and no tis is quick, fast in a hurry.

Hubby is doing okay with it. All of the Kiddos right now are fine. I am the only one who seems to be living in a dream world now. I keep thinking of everything we have to do to be ready to ship Hubby off and have me prepared for a few months alone.

When Hubby first told me what was happening and when I just said, "I need to process." I had to leave to think about things so I went to Sam's and bought a few things and came to terms with no tears running down my face (I am a crier at anything and everything) that everything will be fine and so will I.

Hubby will be in the states and only a 14 hour drive from here so we will be able to talk and see each other daily on the webcams. That reminds me to get mine out and see if it will work still. Anyway, I know we will be back living in the same household by the sumer time but at the same time I am really not looking forward to being a single mom, bill payer, student, friend and sole ego booster for my Hubby. He needs me now more than ever since he will be leaving again after less than a year and will miss the Kiddos greatly. His heart is our Kids and he has a very hard time without them around everyday.

It has also dawned on me that I will be alone on another Valetine's Day, a couple more birthdays and getting ready for another move. The questions and To Do List are raging out of control. What do I do with Pooch if we have to move more than 12 hours away? Will we need passports? How much of our stuff should I sell or keep or trash? What is the weight limit? Will I fall apart when I watch proudly as Hubby takes his enlistment oath? Just the things that go through mind about every 5 or so minutes.

Ok I think I am done whining now. I am off to complete part of my English quiz. SO far I have started my semester off with 4 As and nothing less. A good ego boost for me.

It is my 200th post and my Birthday!! WOOOHOOO!!! Such big fun. We are having a big turkey dinner and a carrot cake. Yummy!!!

Hubby is on his way home as I type this to spend the rest of the day with me. I think I may just go and lay down and take a nap. I am ehuasted and it is only the second week of the semester. SO far I have pulled As on all my assigments and I am over halfway through my first section of my Math Lab. Way cool. I have really impressed my self this semester.

Hello!!! I am still alive. Barely but I am alive. Hi Claire!! Thanks for thinking of me.

We have been going through the saw mill with the military. We are not going to be an active duty family til March now. Hubby had to switch his MOS to 11X. After his class we will find out excatly what identifier will be and where we will be going. We have to wait till he ships out before he swears in. He spent 2 days in MEPS to learn he is phycially fit and thet he will keep his rank.


I have been having a rough time with blogging. Not because I do not have anything to say, but that I do not trust myself to say it the correct way or in a manner that is understandable. I also have been wondering why I start to make friends with some wonderful women who have reached out to me. It is of no fault of theirs, it all lays on me. I am in awe of these women and know they are going through or have been through something similiar to me and yet I have no faith in myself to really step out and say something that may help or something to make them smile.

The other reason I have not posted is that I am taking 15 hours this semester. Last semester I had 12 and passed with 3 As and 1 B. Not to shabby for someone who has not been in school for awhile. This semester it is all online with one class I have to be in a lab for 2 hours a week. The only good thing about that is if I keep on top of it and pass 3 sections it counts as one class that I will not have to take in person later on. So my goal is to finish that lab before Hubby leaves for his school.I have finished half the first section already and will try and finish the next two in the next 4 weeks. The only reason I was able to complete the first part so fast was because it was a review of what I already know.

I am off to work on some homework and try to make it to bed before 1am.

Happy New Year!!

We are having a couple over for a ham, mashed sweet potatoe, collard greens, black eyed peas and cornbread dinner. The house smells clean and the food is wonderful. Donimoes after dinner and lots of laughs. The best way to start a year that has many unknows in store for us.

Still no clue when Huby will be active and where we will be showing our pretty faces next. Everytime we think it is time to go it is "Oh, by the way, we need this and this and this....." It has turned into a pain in the butt. But it is a new year and I will be patient til they say we are an Active Duty family again.

Have a happy and blessed 2008.