I have been totally blessed this weekend. We had a most wonderful revivial at church and come to find out we paid for it ourselves. It is a huge feat when the church is running 25 people and 7 of them is our family. :) The Pastor that did this revivial was wonderful. Very personable and on fire for God. He had words for someone every service. He even called Huby and I out. Hubby was told to hang on and stay focused. I was called out twice. Once to be told that God does have a plan for me and once to be a submissive wife. Keep my mouth shut and let God do his work.

The second time I was called out I began to wonder what excatly a submissive wife is. I am still muddling through that one and have one thing down. I ned to just not say things sometimes. My words can hurt more than I will ever know. I think I am going to have a new motto. Say nothing if I have nothing good to say and cry unto God for the hard times. Not harp on them.

Ohhhh....... I was also told that God wants me as prayer warrior. That got me to thinking... How can I pray for others when I am not worthy of what GOd has done in me? Oh wait this is my place then. :) I am to stay quiet and prayer my heart out for others. Most importanly for my family. I can only hope that I can live up to what God has in store for me.

I probly should go since Huby may be popping in this morning for a snack and I need to have a few more things done around here before he shows up. Have a wonderful blessed day.

Well Hubby is liking the routine of work and I like haing my house back for a few hours a day. Life is good. I can't wait to get real paychecks again. It is also a bonus because Hubby is paid weekly. No more two week crap.

The Kiddos are doing great wiht their Daddy. Baby is learning that his daddy is awesome and good to have around. The Bully acts as if Daddy never left. It is a good thing Bully does not see Daddy leave for work. I am just glad it is not in a DCU or ACU uniform he has to leave in. Buddy Lee loves having Daddy home. SOmeone to play rough with and have a good time. Sweetness is in heaven. She loves her Daddy so much. Big MAn was the one I was worried about. But he is also doing fine. He loves the fact Hubby is going to church and I think he has a new respect for his Daddy.

As for the fate of Hubby and me. It is a good one. We are working on things and being better people with each other. I so hate the fact that we treated each other like we did but am so glad that we had this chance to be away from each other to learn what we needed and wanted. We are still in the process of learning to live together and love each other they way we need. When you see how bad off you could really be and what you may loose makes life so much more precious. I would not trade this deployment just for that one hard lesson we have learned.

Church is great. We are having revivial this week and then an area wide rally on MOnday night. We are looking forward to it but not being tired. I am off to finish dinner and get the kiddos ready to eat.

I miss Hubby. He went back to work yesterday and loves it. He is back in pest control for now and passed his written and physical for the local police department. He is so excited. I like having y days back to myself but I so miss the time Hubby and I had together. It really helped our relationship and brought us back together again.

Sunday night at church it was about marriage. I was shown some mistakes I have made. Hubby said he had seen some things he had done that was not right. We sat up for most of the night and just chatted about a few things and decided again to link hearts and put God first in our lives and know that with God nothing will tear us apart once again. This is such a change from a few weeks ago. I am no longer worried about what he does while we are apart or where he is at. I once heard a Pastor say that in a good marriage the man feels like a king who can do all and the woman feels like a queen above all else. That is so true.

We also talked about how this deployment will always been in our minds when we do something or a special day rolls around. The one day I do not look forward to is the one year ann. of his unit losing 5 wonderful men who were husbands and fathers. Sons and brothers. I still cry when I think about them and what they were forced to leave behind. Then the God part kicks in and says "There is a time for everything." So true. God's plan and purpose is so much better than anything we can do ourselves.

I am off to do some housework and enjoy my quiet time. Have a blessed day.

I miss Hubby. He went back to work yesterday and loves it. He is back in pest control for now and passed his written and physical for the local police department. He is so excited. I like having y days back to myself but I so miss the time Hubby and I had together. It really helped our relationship and brought us back together again.

Sunday night at church it was about marriage. I was shown some mistakes I have made. Hubby said he had seen some things he had done that was not right. We sat up for most of the night and just chatted about a few things and decided again to link hearts and put God first in our lives and know that with God nothing will tear us apart once again. This is such a change from a few weeks ago. I am no longer worried about what he does while we are apart or where he is at. I once heard a Pastor say that in a good marriage the man feels like a king who can do all and the woman feels like a queen above all else. That is so true.

We also talked about how this deployment will always been in our minds when we do something or a special day rolls around. The one day I do not look forward to is the one year ann. of his unit losing 5 wonderful men who were husbands and fathers. Sons and brothers. I still cry when I think about them and what they were forced to leave behind. Then the God part kicks in and says "There is a time for everything." So true. God's plan and purpose is so much better than anything we can do ourselves.

I am off to do some housework and enjoy my quiet time. Have a blessed day.

Loving life. I have learned what it is to learn to live with a spouse who was deployed for as long as mine was. All I can say is thank you God for being my strength and Hubby for letting God work. We have had small issues arise but noting to get to worked up about. I love having my Soldier homeand knowing he is not going anywhere for a long time.

I have heard so many horror stories about learning to live with spouses again. I was terrified to have Hubby come home. I admit there are days that I wish Hubby would go back but at the end of the day I thank God Hubby is home and we are together. We have many things to work through but together with God as our guide anything is possible. I look forward to our future now and am actually excited about it.

Everyone have a good night. I am off to enjoy my time with Hubby.